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Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Im effing angry, its this irritating thing about MY mum who feels that she is Rislin`s MUM.. When rislin wake up, she would just babynap into her room and give her toy,that makes her even more active than ever! Got play, a baby want to sleep meh? And her reason behind it? Cause must play until she tired then will sleep..

And evidence that IF she did not play with rislin? rislin slept VERY well last night without her.. Usually she would wake up at least 3-4times a night and yesterday she only woke up 2-3times with no excessive crying.. Its like she doesnt help me anything but she feel that she help me a great deal by taking away rislin and i told her dont even give her toy even if u wan bring her to ur room
shes like then she dont want sleep what i can do, and yesterday rislin survived on a no toys night!

And i swear shes giving me hell everyday and when i talk to her about it, she say everything i blame her.. HAR?? Its like you and the effin lousy, useless, should be castrated,hell of a EX father of mine, do all the shit and i must clean up? WHY!!! Why people can be so firm with their mum yet when i told her off its my fault! When i try to snatch back my baby my fault! Everything she does no fault! Only me got FAULT! Everything my FAULT!

If she really so helpful, yesterday morning i asked if she can help take care of rislin while i and hubby go eat my fravoite porridge, she refuse! Cause we plan to ride go as its 2-3 bus stops away.. And bike cant bring babies by the way. And its like if you want to help, cant you help for this less than a hour? She goes out of the house at 9am daily and i asked her was at 7.30am.

Im still so freaking pissed.. and words alone cant describe my agony that i have been suffering for as long as rislin`s age now!

Updated-
I wish that my EX dad gets run off by truck and die a slow painful death. Rislin was crying just now as i refuse to feed her as this is the only way to let my mum hear my words. So i just let her cry while my mum keep pushing her to me. And till she knows im determined, she says that she will respect my decision and not carry her to play when she wakes up at night tomorrow.

Then my effin EX dad, came and say in chinese " shen dao jiao xin ku shen lai gai ma" In english, give birth till so diffcult, give birth for what.. So i ignored him and let rislin keep crying since its the only way i get the message across.

Then the effin tardard, came into my room and dragged my husband into the conversation and say, if you`re so capable then move out tomorrow, buy your own flat. And i told him, no matter how poor we are, we are richer than you, Even if you are richer, what about kinship?He pissed me off directly saying that dont worry after we sell the flat, i will cut off ties with you.. And said alot more nasty words.

Well so then, i dont mind and i even told him that once hes old dont even come crawling back to me, and i wont even attend your funeral.. So, im looking for a lawyer now to process the paperwork, any recommendation?

And btw as a jackass he is, he wanted 70% of the shares for HIMSELF and me and my mum only 30%, and he has pre martial affair with a AUNTY with a DAUGHTER who is married and gotten a divorce after he divorced, DUHS..And he treats us well WITH MOTIVE, who always borrow $ from my grandma. Pathetic life hes leading.

her sweet memory was written @ 8:43 AM